a blog award.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Alyssa,
One - I miss you!
Two - I am sorry it took me this long to thank you for the award.
Three - Thanks! It is always so sweet when you pass these along to me!


The rules:
Say 10 facts about yourself.
Tag 10 bloggers.
Tell them about the award.

1. I am the most disorangzized person who truly craves organiztion. It's really insane that I can be so messy and out of sorts when I am the happiest when everything is nice and neat.
2. I really really want another baby. Even on the days when mine drives me up a wall.
3. I've got an obsession with skinny jeans, flat & colorful sandals, cardis and white tshirts right now.
4. Sometimes, I eat L's gerber snacks along with her. They are actually pretty tasty and low cal!
5. When I find a new song I like, I'll just replay it over and over. It drives M a little nuts, I think.
6. My dad doesn't understand blogging. He just asked me what I was doing, I anwersed blogging and he said "oh, playing on the computer?". Yes dad, I am playing on the computer. Aren't parents funny?
7. I could go to Target everyday just to hunt down new clearance deals.
8. My new iPhone is pretty much glued to my hands 24/7. It's obsessive really.
9. I hate slow drivers. Everyone in NC drives slow. My horn is getting a lot of use here. And people don't blow their horns here so I get alot of hand motions for that!
10. I have this new dream where I want to start running. Let's see how far that goes!

I'm going to be lazy and not tag this time around!

E IS FOR EASTER

It's late, I know. But here's the shorter version of the deleted Easter post.

Lia woke up to tons of goodies.

Really, could a kid ask for more?

Church plans ending up flopping, so we headed outside to play while we figured out the plans.


We decided on lunch with the family. But we got all dolled up for a mini photo shoot first. Which turned out to be a good plan because miss independent refuses to wear bibs and came back home with a macaroni stained dress.


last easter & this easter.

my siblings, minus one amazing sister.

After lunch we had the egg hunt. And little miss? Yeah, she knew exactly what to do.




My heart swelled with joy and happiness as I watched her run around the yard finding eggs and breaking them open for the treats inside.


lia & daddy - lia & poppa. her two favorite guys ♥


We had a great Easter! Now, if I could just stop eating the candy...

AT MY WITS END

Wednesday, April 27, 2011


This was supposed to be the Easter post. A start in the right direction of catching up and keeping up with my blog. As I was adding one of the last photos, I must have hit a wrong button. Poof. My blog post was gone. And stupid blogger auto-save decided to save right.that.second. There was no undoing it.

Two hours of hard work and precious nap time wasted. And, I'm pissed. I'm a crying, blubbering, very angry mess.

So now it's a vent post. Because I rarely ever vent here. It's my blog, but it's to keep up with my family and I hate stepping on people's toes but I'm tired of stepping on my own.

This blog is my only outlet. One of the only things that keeps my head on straight. When I blog, the world feels right. When I don't, I feel like a mess. Silly? Maybe. That's just how it is.

It may have been just an Easter post full of pictures and it probably won't take two hours to rewrite. But it was just the end of my wits.

As you know (or maybe you don't, so here you go), M was discharged from the Marine Corp the end of February. Things happened quicker than we expected so we quickly packed up our house, tied loose ends and made the move to North Carolina to live temporarily with my parents.

With the government all screwed up now, the big job possibilities M had are frozen. I like my ice cream frozen, not my possibilities.

Here we are, two whole months later, still living in limbo. Limbo messes with me. It throws me off balance and it makes me unhappy. It makes me not the girl I want to be.

L is doing fine. She loves being near her grandparents, all the dogs here, the outdoors and having mommy and daddy around all the time. I don't think she's really noticed life has changed so much.

M is doing okay. He's much better at staying put together than me. He wants a job and he applies all the time and he wants our life back too, but he's doing okay with where we are.

Me? Not so much. I am thankful we have somewhere to stay. I am so thankful God is still looking out for me and my family and I know there's a reason we don't have a job yet. I am thankful my parents are letting us live here.

I just need my own space, my own life....

I know I should just stay postive and open-minded and that everything happens for a reason. I did that the first month and a half. Now, I'm struggling with what I know is right and what my tired mind is telling me.

Don't we all just need to vent sometimes? Isn't it good to just get it out? I'm feeling a little better already. I am just so frustrated at this point and I'm trying to hold on and keep it together.

I crave a home for my family. A job to provide for us. To use my pretty white dishes again. Have a computer at my disposal that isn't slow as molasses. To sink down into my new and so comfortable sofa at the end of the day. To cook and bake in my own kitchen. Normal, everyday things that are taken for granted.

I just want my life back.

P.S.
Sorry for putting this blahhhness out there. I understand if you didn't read it. I don't blame you. I just needed to get it off my chest. I can't keep pretending like everything is perfect. I can't keep up that way. Things aren't pefect, but they could be worse. I just have to keep moving on with my head as high as I can manage.

Maybe with this out there, I won't struggle to blog like I have been. I can't promise it will be as often as I'd like considering the circumstances but I will try and I will be honest. My life isn't all sunshine and daisies and I guess it's about time that showed here.


p365 week 16

Tuesday, April 26, 2011


106. Having her first big girl breakfast - cheerios and milk!
107. Learning how to drink out of a juicebox.
108. Love that face.
109. A special treat left by L's uncle Chris.
110. Berry picking.
111. Easter treats.
112. Pretty girl making a mess!

WHAT'S BEEN GOING ON LATELY

Monday, April 25, 2011

I am way behind and I'm dealing with my slow netbook. I am going to blog tomorrow, I hope!

For now, here's a sneak peak of what's to come.

New glasses!

Easter 2011!

When did my babe go from a wee little one to a full-fledged toddler??

Family photo shoot!

I seriously have like 7 or 8 blog ideas written down in my notes. I just need to find the time to write them!

To all my amazing readers and followers, thanks for sticking around these past few months. One day, my life will be normal again and my blog posts will follow!

EASTER NEST TREATS

Thursday, April 21, 2011

They aren't the most original idea and I know they are making their way around the blogosphere this past week but I was feeling the urge to bake something and I haven't felt that urge in a while so I jumped to it.

First, I tryed dipping Peeps into almond bark and decorating with sprinkles. That was a flop. I know it can be done, I've seen it on various blogs but it just wasn't working for me yesterday.

Instead, I went with this idea.


I found these two tutorials. One and two.

I went with number one. The second one looks tasty as well but I didn't have mini marshmallows.


If you want a quick, fun and easy Easter treat, this is it!


strawberry picking.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Today was supposed to be a beach day. I had my list, packed my bags and had my alarm set so I could be up bright and early. Then, we realized the beach is about 10 degrees cooler than here and it was going to be a windy day. Not exactly perfect beach weather, unless you want to freeze. And, we didn't.
Instead, we headed to a local farm for strawberry picking.


I used to go strawberry picking every Spring. When my mom was a little girl she used to live across from the farm and would go with her grandma. Now, L is going with her grandma!

I lurve strawberries. And there is nothing like a box full o' fresh berries. No sugar, whipped cream or any other toppings needed, they are delish. I can't stop eating them.

ignore the quality - it's an iPhone pic and not a great one!

Lia really loved them too. Once she figured out she was in a field of gasp...fruit! and she could have what she wanted she learned pretty quick what to do. She was running up and down the aisles, yanking a berry here and there and stuffing them in her mouth. I think grandma talked her into tossing one or two into the bucket.




Then she found a molded one. And, in what felt like slow motion M and I both went nooo Lia... and rushed to fish it out of her mouth. It was all over then. We had pissed her off.

Of course, grandma fixes everything with a new berry :)

But we ended up with a bucket full and a few good memories in our short 10 minutes. Literally, like 10 minutes. We were the first customers so there was good pickings today.



And, I got to cross another item off of my 101 in 1001 list!

p365 - week 15

Sunday, April 17, 2011

 It's week 15. I know I've been behind in blogging but I'm drained. Drained of inspiration and creativity, drained of patience. Just drained. I'm going to try and get back into the swing of things. If not for me and my sanity, but for Lia and her memories.


99. Enjoying our day at the Azalea Festival.
100. Lia is driving! Kidding. We were hanging out in the car before lunch with friends.
101. My silly girl.
102. Self-explained.
103. I was sick and in the house all. day. long. When I let Toby out to pee, I saw this. Beautiful skies perked me up a bit.
104. A purse. Because M and I got to do a little shopping on our own and there was no need for a diaper bag!
105. Trying out the new nail strips from Sally Hanson! Perfect for moms who really don't have the time to let nail polish dry.

real momma, real style.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Momma Go Round

This week, I'm linking up several outfits with Real Momma, Real Style. It's not like I haven't been trying. I just haven't been posting the pictures! Lazy and crazy.

Outfit #1 was this week and I really stepped out of my comfort zone. How much whiter could my legs be?

Necklace - Lisa Leonard
Cardi - Old Navy
Lacy camisole - Charlotte Russe
Tank top - Old Navy
Skirt - Old Navy
Sandals that scream Spring - Target
Chunky belt - GAP

Outfit #2
I really stink at modeling so I took advice from Momma Go Round and got silly.
Also, I reuse items. Alot.





Sunglasses/Camisole - Charlotte Russe
Cardi/Shirt/Capri's - Old Navy
Belt - GAP
Flip flops - Roxy. Borrowed from my sister. Thanks ashes, even though I didn't ask you ;)

Outfit #3


Cardi/Belt/Jeans - Old Navy
Cami - Charlotte Russe
Shirt - Old Navy, I think. It's old.
Flats - Target

It's sad how much I reuse certain pieces but I am just starting to learn what I really like and what works and what doesn't. Once I get better at that and get my butt in gear to losing a few pounds, I'll hopefully have some new stuff to work with!

p365 - week 14.

I really haven't been taking pictures, or picking up my camera at all for that matter, nearly as much as I want to. Luckily, my iPhone is still glued to my hands.
As much as I have been out of touch with things lately, I am so thankful for this project. I can't remember what I was doing a few days ago, much less months ago and it's awesome to be able to look back at the weekly pictures while I'm editing and putting together a collage and remember "oh yeah, we did that. and there was that fun moment. and that great picture was taken". Ya know?


92.  Sonic + happy hour = yummy drinks.
93. Lia helping her daddy walk Callie.
94. Gorgeous Spring day at the park.
95. Nomming on a cookie.
96. L's sunshine cupcake. Don't worry, she didn't eat that whole thing. Half was split between the 3 of us and the other half met the garbage can today ;)
97. Family picture on M's 26th birthday.
98. Swinging at the park. Love those big brown eyes!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Happy Birthday to my handsome husband, M.

He turns 26 today which is actually a relief because he thought he was turning 27. That set off a conversation where we had to count back the years and make sure we both knew how old we were and then we figured out that when he turns 30 he'll still be with a 20-something year old!

Ha. Yea, that's how our minds roll sometimes.

So babe, this one is for you. For all the times you've supported me and made me laugh and spoiled me. For all the nights you went out to get me whatever I was wanting, preggo cravings or not! For all the nights you got up with our Lia bug and all the mornings you brought me breakfast in bed. For the times you take L out of my hair so I can get something anything done without a breakdown.

For being you. And being mine. I lurve you with all my heart. Here's to another 26 years. And another 26 after that.

Thanks for spending this regular ole' filled to the brim with errands day with me.